Fo Tan a drop on sugar
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On middle school Chinese textbook way problem, Mr LU Xun wrote "I have two trees in the yard, a was jujube tree, another is also jujube tree" questions asked after class "this sentence reflects the mood of Lu Xun 's? ”
Old law read here dropped out of that year, he said, "How do I fucking know how Mr LU Xun in the second paragraph is thinking about, but the Board know, there is a standard answer"
Feng Tang is another high school student, he got a black shops, selling teaching reference books, yellow skin, should provide students with the book, but he can spend money to buy it, wrote in the book standard answers "Mr LU Xun was representative of this sentence in Quake Wars disturbed mood under the white terror." He went on the papers a copy.
The teacher said to the class ", the only Feng Tang a student got. ”
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Later, after many years, they got to know.
Old law has been junior high school education, not buy fake diplomas, failed TV University. Selling traditional Chinese medicine, and a stall with goods spread out on the ground for sale, mixed the cause opportune moment to Beijing, Feng Tang in the Concord completed the hospital, United States completed his PhD, partner at McKinsey when finished, bought Houhai courtyard, old law just to live in his home in Beijing, he leaves his old law school change investment. "With the money, what's the bad thing, even dare"
Old Luo in table Shang cross must Sihai, ridicule, Feng Tang is table Shang does not Word does not HA, quite quiet of, but eyes live, others said boring words he on took phone took table Shang of girl, was said evil words, he laugh was and fast and bad, sometimes also side head with old Luo supplementary sentence what, we no listen to Qing, asked said what, old Luo a waved "don't asked has, this is a rogue"
I felt crazy Feng Tangjuan, ride with the evening meal, he said to me was young, I had failed the second, TOEFL full marks, without background, is the camera memory. Write things that do not want to, hold a sit, write down like he was dedicated to hand.
I thought, this man really is.
Later, with the old law also talked "he got a sense of superiority"
Said the old law with appreciation of "stinking niubi chant". He himself is not a man of modestly, "I hope that those who like to" shoot the bird which takes the lead "this reason lesson young people, and therefore feel very mature Chinese can understand the fact that one day, and that is: some birds came to the world, things to do is to do it, rather than specifically hide cartridge. ”
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Beginning Feng Tang novels I don't much like, vigor of a drip, but rampage missing, in the view of our girl, this is a male hormone-driven writing, is another animal talk-– like our existence just like a mirror mapping them out is not likely to have resonance.
However he of text is fishy, fresh, wrote with girl in laboratory with beaker drink 70 of of medical with alcohol, edge Shang are is with formalin bubble with of human organ, "I drink was anxious has, half cup down, heart on jumped out pleural effusion, heave to wanders in I body around, pink steam ball if, I of Yang with ankylosing, beat I of zip, breaking open soil of ground on can respiratory, opened curtain on can singing. Wine is a good thing, I think, if one out of two bottles of 70 degrees on the opening night cast-medical alcohol, tomorrow night will you blush? Fragrance will do better? Its branches ankylosing up? ”
Chinese characters and Chinese characters to a such a place, like Golden cable drilling in Feng Tang's words, some local fine tail swing out.
This very strange, we were 70 people, my reading is criticizing Hu Feng's file and writing communication, writing compositions is "Spring Thunder Plains a sound, gang of four was shattered," he of where this thing came from?
Presumably because both he and old law standard answer back time saved, old law after dropping out, Li Ao Wang Shuo of the The History of the Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire, Feng Tang see Lawrence, ershisishi and of the Jin Ping Mei. Wang Guo really when I was 17, he has written both novels, wetting the story of the old law wrote a very magical, voted for the harvest, is the Juvenile literature of Feng TANG voted, there is a poem, a a-half children have been evil quite shapes, "I have no body, also can you burn".
They are so wild gas health quite to long up, look does not Shang weak foolish cowardice meat brain of elite, Hong Kong has a Dong Qiao, sentences wrote was hard and gorgeous, 60 aged of when feeling: "I in a down-to-earth manner hard has for decades years, I are integrity direct to life has for decades years, I meter care more to measure has each a a Word, I no live up to the check Shang I of name of each article text", article called forging sentence try to find the exact word is courtesy under.
Feng Tang said "these words are my blood, as if facing a big white face, listening to a Japan Geisha said," I work hard in a down-to-earth manner for decades, I was just straight to live for decades, I counted about a day painting my face, I have lived up to everyone seen meat in my face "
Friends talking about Feng Tang, divided into two classes, one like him, said "he means the moon on the left hand, right hand ditch, and then cut a finger. ”
Another category of even his name is not mentioned, "too much yin"
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I understand they say "yin" is.
Feng Tang said South Korea from the cold, he said South Korea's essays well, I asked how he felt that Korean novel, he for example that there is a his favorite writers called Ian, wrote eight-novelette, was taboo, bully an idiot or something, very fundamental moral Subversion the darkest side of human nature, "but his perspective is a good novelist's perspective. ”
He said a detailed "them on the second floor, next to a small fishing port, taste of the fish have been, with girls hold together, are monsters in the flexible walls, he said to the girls, the girls start did not hear, and slowly she heard. ”
The details he was speaking could not express the kind of sensitive, "this is the normal human eye can't see the things, but it is normal in a day, or rain, or wake up suddenly to feel things. ”
He said that it is the novelist's responsibility.
He says, "Han Han didn't touch the door"
He believes he has this sensitive, "was a lonesome gold cash deposited in dark, broken no news pomegranate red".
He studied medicine for several years to increase the breath, "I remember advanced ovarian cancer patients how to slowly go off like a a no firewood pile of firewood, firewood goes off after a few weeks, wandering slowly figure also in the ward, still standing on the scale, they call their weight. ”
To see the dark people, about Cao Xueqin said cruel perverseness and of Ling Ming temperament handsome two gases meet, "this gas for men and women even in good faith and the living, is not on as Sage, also cannot be under fierce great evil. Dismiss everything. His gas congjun clever, is absolutely above; the paradox of inhuman State of remote evil, and totally under "
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I wonder is, written words, generally away from the popular works of this kind, after wine across the stomach, let the King step aside out of the light. He is not from the United States back to Hong Kong, Hong Kong back to the Mainland, and go to work in the large State-owned enterprises, when the Bureau-level cadres, it is soaked in a secular, "noon wine, drink to the three points about, talked about the dinner, did not finish on, dinner dance Duet, dinner was the third plenary. Eat cold dish, stood on a toast. Drink drank vomit and then, to 12 points. ”
I asked, meeting every day what should I do?
He said there was a high-ranking official told him that "during the meeting with a prayer beads, when listening to monks people"
The routine of the party, the foreigner series, political routine, routine of business, he has cooked. Said political need transparent rules, if not years of accumulation of the spirit of contract, to do. "Now or it is a large State-owned enterprise, or small business. Fundamental form can't force ", I said what you can do, like him, now know that the hospital not, depend on drugs, he was the Union's classmates was seriously low wages, but there is no carrier to help this effort it is twisted. He wanted to use the State-owned enterprise to a ten hospitals, people don't go to Concord.
He said that now that the monopoly situation, can only try to twist drilling systems, "to pick up"
What is the thing I would ask him, he said he had a useful gadget, is a wear a gold chain of United States woman to teach, train hard for ten years in McKinsey Company, called pyramid principle. Give me a file to.
"In one sentence said that pyramid principle is that anything can sum up a central argument, this argument can be made up of three to seven arguments in support of the Centre, the level argument themselves can also be a point, is of secondary three to seven arguments in support of, so extend, shaped like pyramids.
He wrote "for supporting arguments for each tier of the pyramid, there is a very high demand: MECE (Mutually exclusive and collectively exhaustive), the independent do not overlap one another, together completely exhausted but not omitted. Don't miss to not cause delay in work or business, not overlap can not do without hard. ”
First time I saw him engaged in consulting management colours of "House of the emperor as early as in the past about, give you three minutes you encounter in an elevator leading now, will give you 30 seconds, you only report on the centre point and level support support, leadership realized that something was going to be. If leaders like Liu Bei three regard your thatched cottage, hip and numbness of the extremities, and from breakfast to dinner, eating empty your refrigerator. You have time of the speech, he is interested, you will report to the 18th level arguments, why third world, Shu and can have one. With this in principle to Exchange most effective. ”
This person is interested in the world, between the Chinese and Zeng Guofan's leader meritorious service convey three immortal, "Zeng Guofan niua, his own flesh as candles, joint sections, four end points, ignited four flames burning in oblique tones to niubi oblique tones on the shibanlu foot bolted. ”
So he first learn old social understanding, reliance on common sense Pepsi can do. Second if you want to make about contributions, don't retreat at group headquarters, to go to the front line, go to secondary companies, the real fuel and rice Chief daily necessities daily necessaries tea against homeboy mix fool madman, responsible for a full clear profit and loss account. Old Zeng Lingming of third a third by, to adapt to, unlike monks into 500 in the mountains, like to have the best life of boiling broth, understand what is "not welcome in the future, not complex at that time, is not love".
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But one I'm afraid not, old has a green rattan case for life, a Pouilly, also with grease stains on the front, slightly mindful of secular, reviled they are Brutes, say no for the Saints, for the beasts. He is neither, appreciation of ancient jade girl articles, which are reluctant.
In fact, he was quite clear, know what real literature to pay the price, not as in Sima Qian's paying body, will have to pay poor as Cao Xueqin. True to wine, beauty or article handed down, a little greedy. He also imagined the dog as a face, a down and pen, "omniscient and omnipotent and best to go through life without a".
But he has a mother, his MOM is purebred Mongolia people, old also wears a Red skirt, hanging of Sophora viciifolia in the neck, one can drink a bottle of Mongolia taomagan wine, see long good flora, fauna, said home stew, see the scenery is the best place, said a House.
There is a MOM, he is unlikely to be as Ruan, Ji Kang. Plus he is egg under the red flag, not the flames not troubled times, listen to the Alex Ostrovsky "person's life should have sth" grow up, University dormitories sat drinking poor-quality Jasmine tea every day to see the forbidden city gold coloured glaze top willothewisp flashing, consulting out of the country did know about a piece of A4 paper, wrote the words for 20,000 American knife.
Where such people can still afford "hundred without using".
I asked him the power to you attractive, he thought for a moment to say "I can feel attracted, but not forming eager, caught up in time, still very cool"
He thought for a moment, they say, is very cool.
Then said a sentence, is very cool
Examples and a friend "you old Chen he is doing is the best in the industry, but why hurt yourself with a bunch of silly to force competition? Because without treatment without this table, it is a dilemma, of course, to come here, you have to twist your way, but this twisted what certainly is far from ideal in your own heart. ”
Lu Fangweng saying "there are extinguished in secular, rather something to do, late regrets, and fisherman's Ling sing, not of Judah" Feng Tang said he looked a little afraid, but, I know it is life.
A lot of people told him, what are the scenery good place where there is room, why keep down to full-time writing.
He said, "there was a girl back water up the mountain every day, later with Wells on the Hill, he has also been back, someone said, why are you still back the basket, he says back cold. ”
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He once said, "I aspired to be a bartender, then what does? But according to the traditional values that do not fly. ”
I said "you can get rid of you"
He said, "obsession, so I want to fight. ”
Against the one way is to write the Yellow Book, can't know. Also to be written. Said to be his childhood Lawrence, the carnal prayer mat, look at the results of the Jin Ping Mei, to writing a really good and kind, "like filigree on the Column to be passed on to the female flower anthers as good, kind like a hungry go hungry and eat dinner", a 500-year benefit of mankind.
That want to send me, and very disturbing "firewood teacher you won't think me is rogue."
Hey, Chai teachers are people who see the world.
I said you Sakai write, write infants are creatures, to the naming of all things.
Later, he sent an outline view, that of the best, the first sentence is Yu xuanji stood on the Hill to the old Buddhist monk said "do you want to see naked? "Are large scale behind to challenge the taboos, the juices drip, I don't think does not apply, just a little do not quite understand what he wanted to write.
Have said this, he said that many novels, does not prove anything, read more confused, or you think you understand, confused again. "The best, the story clear, people clear background, power ups and downs and clear, but how people judge, right and wrong, and so on, without any conclusions. ”
Then why do you want to write Yellow Book? I asked.
He said, "I respected not promiscuity, I just wanted to throw away the aesthetic and Orthodox thought, because to accept new ideas for a rogue is very easy, for Socialist woman is very difficult. ”
He asked his father, the age, you have any unfulfilled wish in life, his father said I want to liberate Taiwan.
He is feeling, saying such a sample of a Heart Foundation, even if there are any thoughts, are also easy to come across a large range of oppose, correct, how are not pushed. "Who stayed in this position, pushing fixed---do not say this, but it is a reality. If such a population, allow them to support you, only with what he has been used. If you want to stand up against what anti-who is also a Big-character poster.
He said, "If you become a, may be even worse. ”
He used this to explain why he didn't talk about current affairs, nor does it conflict with something positive, to write literature.
Feng Tang said: "what is the role of literature and art? Can at least start the human heart, a little beauty, look to the sky, not just the Sun. This man a distraction to independence will be able to establish some. ”
His words like Tsai Yuan-pei said, "a nation is not no aesthetic of knowledge of good and evil", so after World War I Miss CHOY has a view, moral to rely on art education, "beauty is no personal gain, you can" across the miles when the Moon ", there is universal. The people I see fade away. ”
Feng Tang said he had a part ⅱ, is to write stories of Liao dynasty eunuch, he said, "I want to use my way to write history, usually heard these things, at least there is another interpretation, not truth that you hear, just another way of saying the truth. At least I think that argument. Wang Jingwei was a big guy do? Depending on how you look. People should be relatively complicated. Not since childhood is the standard answer, not wrong. ”
At this time was able to see the benefits of money – – written when there are no taboos or restrictions at all, not for the printed paper, not to earn money, finish Tibi look around, satisfaction, he said, "If you do not have a certain degree of economic foundation, independence of thought, lots of things you are afraid to do. Conversely, economic confidence, you have consciousness, independent thinking, which is inseparable. ”
It was his understanding of freedom, a bit like he liked written by William Somerset Maugham's character, "he is like a body oil wrestling, you fail to grasp his. This gave him a free told you was furious.
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Boost the badly on his text, strange deities, but speaks very normal. This very well, fear of fear in turn.
They said that after he drank large, talking scale greatly, but I've missed, so I think he is an introvert person, talking to girls from far is at, sometimes also stumble, feels he is just like his novels, like when overgrowth too fast, part there is no mature look.
He course also will some stuffy Sao of enrollment, such as lie in table Shang, while to see with people "tired has", and units in of sister were immediately love "fast to sleep fast to sleep, I to do" this is that middle school small boys trick, he also old a bit sorry "" Taurus seat actually no so adulterous "he supplement a sentence" with he can are of opportunities compared "
He said he likes the woman never changed. Are a type, are full of strong, with a strong, he is as aggressive as saying like scissors, know what they are doing "not two days, and a turn one ' s face was found hanged".
Teacher Wang at his house to earn money than him badly, no make-up, back a "serving" cloth bag, very bright, dinner table, he said sentence back, her eyes at him, he was grinning Toast King her "teacher Wang, wish you happiness"
Two people touch a smile.
Chat, talk of marriage, he had a table that you ask the right person, seriously thought for a long time, there is the most important "two people is to love, even into ash, is also a basis for later marriage. ”
This normally, people say it is a bit weird he such a drop, he said some thing no matter how smart you are and the more simple, not a chance, you just don't understand.
So although he and old Rogue gas with Henry Miller, "If you feel confused, fuck", but he is intrinsically not a prey of women as men, even a little feeling of worship, it is not possible and revile dignities or desecration. Would he have, on a love a hand tangled a decade for eight years, a little rain will write a few lines under the inner calm, life left them wrapped around the right bucket, which is a fancy scenes.
On the dinner, there is a girl with him to hair face white.
He and the old law to pee in the Middle, vital active old Luo said "the situation and the situation and only love".
Where there's a rogue also explained.
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We sometimes around a little, eat a cup of tea.
Our middle school alienation was 70 men and women, each other guessing each other humiliating, I recall each other little boys eyes, he was on the roof watching girls distinct pale hair line, "are able to smell they smell", but did not dare to chat up.
After more than 20 to more than 30, are busy men and women in love, inch-inch curved strong bow, toss scrambled aches, live in the imagination to themselves and each other, which have time to understand each other.
To the moment, early snow break, sky blue is blue, the wind blows the snow on the roof of the sky is, glittering, like this so just open your eyes to see the world, find each other and themselves are not God, not mud, are human beings.
I original on he of novels some subject, think among of female does not let I think cordial, later he has times said "I only by I understanding people", I suddenly think, I fundamental don't have by he of novels to see female, he of who on implication with female, he book in that lean of small black boy who, on has I own, childhood Shi love white hot steamed bread, sesame paste dip sugar, drink what tea are is Jasmine smell, often see of book touch was and thick and light, head Shang is spring ash Shang many called hanged himself ghost of bugs, turn had roadside, "Heaven two or three flower is busy of cloud is slow to transform their of form, alley in two or three a old man thin jacket also no to body, sat in Debi Mazar Shang, bubble in Sun in, see busy cloud transform. ”。
Once said on MSN and turnips dead, see written by Feng Tang remarks seen he almost cry loudly. Say there are times when driving, see squirrel was ahead of his own flicker.
"That only squirrel has I see had most puzzle of eyes, is small to stand to in I front does not far of road line within, lower limb stand, upper limb flexor up, two Gill beard fried open, it was scare stayed has, fast left playing wheel, car excess Lane, it also followed Flash into fast lane, Hou wheels gently a top, no heard cheep of a sound, but must was pressure into has rats tablets.
Too be unruffled by emotion on, if a little detached, will not embark on the road, less than under most, if a little dementia, no Dodge. Small white and I'm in the Middle, inevitable outcomes, tragic, was pressed into rats. ”
Whether male or female, as the animals live in the world, a grain of fruit splash of taste in the mouth are the same, combing fur attached to is the same for the other party, being run over the fate of suffering is the same, life of Ecstasy and the resignation of death is the same.
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Has days night chat finished days, he sent I from yard out ride, good as is summer, moon under, ash Xia of fine alley go good long, tree of small black finger means with large silver stars, has several men sat in roadside Shang take with variety shop child of light talk, has a sister-in-law indiscriminately pull has a hairpins, huachou pants baipang leg, took only aluminum basin Hua a sound to water poured in we of feet Qian a cut, Moonlight water mark as ink as flow was where are is.
Feng Tanglao said his heart was swollen, to write up, turn off, sick fun.
To deplore such a summer night, knowing must die so that people have swelling, only to write, his blog called "beat time with text"
Ultimately, nothing is immortal, we will eventually be turned into dust, he is big shortage, but write, write is a no way thing, Don ' t expect anything, but not so is not available. Wang Xiaobo said that Chinese why Milton blind sitting in the dark also wrote sonnet 14? It is called "self".
He said, "I never hoped that one day I feel comfortable, feel smooth everything out, I would rather it never silent, it caused me all kinds of suffering, and I hope it will always be ' Zi Zi ' sound, churning over, like a drop of sugar on the Fo Tan. ”
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